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Everything is not as it seems

He laughs loudly in that deep baritone familiar sound that I have come to know so well, as it fills the air. It is the sound of his joy and elation of his new score that is just up ahead; I hear the more subtle tones of wickedness ringing through it, the echoes of harm and a reminder of what it brings; everything is not as it seems.

Little do they know he has been watching these new recruits from his vantage point; the gallery overlooking the terrace. I wonder will he let them all leave tonight? The guests are here for the transcendence party celebrations, oblivious to what they are getting themselves into. The many believe they have found some new truth, some enlightenment, a secret that nobody else knows about except them and those who have gone before them. Dagon is rubbing his hands together as he hones on each of the new recruits in their tidy group.

I have tried to warn the candidates many times prior and the many before them. They will not listen.

Dagon continues to rub is hands together meticulously, bringing union of his hands, the fingers interlock each other loosely, allowing interplay of contact where the digits lightly clasp and can connect no further to the opposing hand and then the gentle glide of the fingers begin, they trail away from their interlock only to stop just at the point where the tips meet, before they part, then they glide back to the brief hand clasp once again, repeating this motion over and over again, as if it has a calming, meditative state on his thoughts of the basket of goodies down below waiting for his pleasure senses to be indulged. It is in these motions one can perceive his mind registering with his thoughts “Which of the pick will provide me with the greatest jewel”.

The newcomers peer down into the valley, where the transcendence party is happening in the gully clearing amongst the trees on this vast woodland estate.  The melodic music traversing up the hillside has caught their ears as the singer is chiming away the chorus  light being (boom boom) coloured one (boom boom) what’s your hue (boom boom) what’s your shade, what’s your view, are we all shimmering (boom boom) into the light of the new day. (boom boom)

There is a trance-like atmosphere that hangs in the air over the party goers united on the plainland, there is a mild sense that there is danger here, yet there are too many pleasures indulging the senses to override and hone in on exactly what that danger is; this trance like states blocks the many from acting on the need for awakening oneself for protection and self-preservation. The music continues to carry them.….boom boom

A vision captures her mind, someone she knows but does not really know, she has seen them before even spoken with this one whose image has appeared in her subconscious. Are you one I’ve observed from the many groups who have attended these party’s on the hill? She is sensing someone is in danger, is it this one, who has mysteriously appeared from out of nowhere, plopped centre in her thoughts. She begins to pray from her bedroom where she had been comfortably resting before the intrusive thought. “May the love and peace of God the Father surround you; may His protective arms shield you from any danger. My God, my God, my strong deliverer you know what this one needs in their time of trouble, I don’t know what is going on, just that I sense I need to pray for their protection. I thank you for your hand of deliverance. Amen. ”

The newcomers will mingle on this tier for a few hours as they come to know each other and feel comfortable in each other’s presence. They need to feel comfortable in each other’s presence, for the trap comes when one is trusting as they surrender to the experience and let their guard down, believing they are safe in each other’s presence, no harm will befall them.

Promises of new spiritual sight should one take the trip; they will be able to see more of the realm that moves amongst us. The newcomers believe the process has already begun for they stare in awe and wonder at what appears to be coloured souls at the party happening down on the plainland, the many dancing colours; hues of blues and greens, purple, yellow, reds, pinks, orange; the many colours that attract one’s eyes and the brilliance of shimmer and sparkle of clean souls that have not yet lost their shining glory.

I take in the sight with them all, how many times have I witnessed this before? How many times have I seen the same outcome? I get angry at this knowledge; my hands are tied you will not listen to the dangers and the warnings. When will it ever stop? My thoughts are interrupted by the movement of some in the crowd heading towards the open door of the main house to the next stage in tonight’s sequence of events. Everything is uniting within them beckoning them all to come down and join the party and go further than their first exploration on the psychedelic drugs that ignited their senses. The newcomers are full of excitement and awe and are eager to join that sight of interaction.

As I watch them file through I attune to all sounds around me, the soft chatter of the many in their small groups, the new melody and song lyrics travailing over and through the open aired terrace. It’s that song that brings me imagery of one placing a priceless pink diamond on the edge of an open palm, unprotected, unsuspecting of the eagle eyed one swooping swiftly pass and scooping the rare jewel away. Boom it is gone.

How ironic, do they know what this path of life choice is going to cost them? I guess not, otherwise they wouldn’t be here.

These mostly young folks have been offered the chance to go deeper and experience a freer form of transcendence otherwise known as an ‘out of body experience’, free floating, free exploration of the surrounds without constraints of the flesh, in what they have been told is a ‘safe’ environment.

They’ve heard their mates talking about the overwhelming presence surrounds of love encasing their being, it fills their environment; a love they have never known before in such intensity. Dagon certainly has them fooled. The group are overawed with all they see to figure out that exuding love is coming from their own heightened senses and the love they have for everyone individually in the group. This is a catch that will draw them back, to experience this again and again.

It comes from their hearts and floods their environment; a new transcendence experience seriously!

Do they not twig that this love that they feel is their own? Can they not see that the presence of so many in one confined spot allows the fruition of their natural loving state to exude and fill the atmosphere of the environment. Reflecting and rebounding the love they have for each other in natural community of humanity.

They are heading inside to the prepared room with ambience of soft lighting and gentle sounds on a comfortable floor bed to provide for a quiet relaxing intake of hallucinogenic. Everybody reacts differently, some float out easily and unguided, some will fight the process; either way, lift off has one checking their body at the door.

Slowly at first the path is dotted with one or two, here and there, yet as more escape the confines of their fleshly body with the aid of the hallucinogenic and those watcher guides who are masters at pulling the soul from its fleshly temple surrounds, the pathway becomes a travelling line of thinning and expanding sections of multi-coloured densities of beings in unity of purpose.

In this trance like state two are separated to join the patriarch Dagon. Elation fills this pair even more as they acknowledge what they already knew, that had a higher enlightenment capability then the others. The excitement to be chosen to explore further the capabilities and limits that they have is to good an opportunity to pass up.

The patriarch awaits them as they come into view and move towards him. Much is shared and spoken of the honour. These are only formalities for the big event. The patriarch is anxious to be done with the lesson, he has some more pleasurable entertainment awaiting for his presence later in the night.

This next event is his distraction, he is anxious to be there and he wants to get going on the journey. This distraction tonight is what has him do what he has never done before. Instead of separating  the pair as he has done many times before, this time one of the two chosen  will watch what plays out in the lesson of the one who goes first.

The patriarch and the first initiant step some metres away yet enough in view of the other candidate as the patriarch places his hands on the one who stands before him.

The other watches as Dagon appears to glow brighter and fuller; aaah the process this young man thinks, powering up for some great… his thought trails off as he notices his chosen comrade appears to be dimming in luminosity. No, No, it can’t be, as he watches the patriarch take a step back and remove his hands from the initiant, whilst a continual line of an illuminated empowered energy light streams between the initiant and Dagon without the need for touch of the two bodies. Gold light and pure white lights stars flickering from the source into Dagon like a magnet drawing power  in one stream of energy pull, of the strong force reaction that’s taking place. This time “No, No,” exits candidate number two’s mouth in gasps of horror as he knows he’s up next, he acknowledges the draining of the glory of the soul, ‘the light’, the sparks of starlight flashing out from the vessel towards Dagon. Soon there is no more light, just an empty vessel that became dull and thin, lifeless even.

The sparks of life has been sucked dry, the inner body drops as it falls limp to the ground, there is no life left in it, not real life, Dagon has sucked it bare.

The patriarch turns to the second candidate who accepted the invitation to the party of three. There is nowhere to run.

Later the Watchers will come to collect the empty membrane soul casings of the pair that were once full of life and light, now just a shadow of the body they used to be.

I watch Dagon turn to head back to his sanctuary, I am shocked as always to observe the theft of golden light spewing from his eye sockets, as it cascades and hangs in the soft tear trough hollow under the eye from having more than his fill as he jampacked all that was available of this treasure into his celestial body that it could not be fully contained within.

I’ve hidden in close proximity and peered in and watch this scene many times before. If he knew I had seen this sight even once, I would not be here today. I would have suffered the same fate as this unfortunate pair.

None are any the wiser. These two are not missed. Nobody sees that they did not leave with the multitude as the soiree came to a close and the members made their way out the big gates of the private property. Not immediately anyway; two Watchers grab the last two remaining empty body vessels that remain on their floor bed from where they received the intake of the drug to set the stage for the transcendence out of body experience. No one will ever be the wiser that these two charlatans masquerading in the human fleshly bodies of these once present individuals are not who they are supposed to be. Yes, sure there will be subtleties by those who knew them well, their intimate close contacts or family members will notice changes in behaviour, perhaps even changes to the appearance of the eyes by way of eye colour or even black empty sockets. Yet it doesn’t make sense to their nearest and dearest folk, and so the questioning on what they notice in these subtle changes goes amiss. These devil Watchers make a new deceptive beginning in the world.

Later the two soul membrane casings are dumped on the now vacant silent party plainland. These  casings & what little essence of them remains will absorb any remnants of soul starlight residuals that linger in the vicinity from the  party celebrations. If will  not be enough to return them to their former glory, yet this pair will fill out in shape dependant on the quantity of glory left behind. They will appear as shadows or sandy coloured human body shaped forms and will roam the property till the next gathering. They will watch the procession of celebrating newcomers from behind the trees, waiting for their opportunity to sneak out the gates hitching a ride attached to the outer layer of another human’s body. This is there only way out of this woodland prison.

Unbeknownst to all who attended, many of the Watchers who assisted in the process of separation of body and soul, watched and waited till the party was in full swing, as they always do, for there is no chance in getting caught or any party attendees thinking something is amiss. The Watchers know they have time to play, they move to the foyer of the many emptied shell bodies and select what they want and begin to step into these human suits. I watch them all head down the path and out the big gates. Time is irrelevant here, no newcomer would be aware that they have passed through a portal to a different realm out here; our human given hour is perhaps a week in here, though I’ve never wondered to measure it. The Watchers will head to the towns and cities and masquerade as these human identities for a while. It may be a day it may be months it may be years, it all depends on how long the multitude of coloured souls in their transcended state remain dancing on that raised hill in the gully on this private property that leads to another worldly existence, where time is manipulated.

Those who attend will invite others and the cycle continues as Dagon gets his fill.

Be Ready – Be Prepared

a trip to the theatre

How often has one heard this?

Be ready to share the good news of the Gospel that Jesus loves us so much that He provided salvation, the forgiveness of our sins and gifted the Holy Spirit to lead us to all truth and whom helps us to overcome. Jesus provided the way back to our true home, God the Father’s mansion in the sky.
Jesus warned us and shared:

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I have come that they may have life, and have it in all its fullness. - John 10:10

Yet, this is not enough for some who reject God, many Christians forever cop remarks like:
“If God loves us then why are there pandemics, floods, death and suffering”; and the list goes on.
I too in the past have come up short with answers when confronted with the same questions. I have realised that as Christians our answers are based on our life experiences and our understanding of all the truths God the Father has been attempting to share with us on the journey, either as babes on milk or as we have grown to greater maturity on the walk and in His word.

It takes us a long time to awaken to the full truths of our own actions and the actions of others.

But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts, and always be ready to give a defence to everyone who asks you a reason for the hope that is in you, with meekness and fear… - 1Peter 3:15

We forget to warn of the dangers of spiritual practices that God warned us to stay away from and the implications and harm that comes into one’s life and family from such ways if we go seeking and let these harmful ways into our lives and homes.

About a decade or two ago, I was present when a young primary school child got their finger stuck in the car door. Small talk passed between Mother, Daughter and Aunty on the accidental incident including as to why the child was slow to make mention of her alarming situation. Directed by the moments in the conversation of the painful jam resulted in one, either Mother or Daughter directly posing the question, “Why didn’t God stop the finger from being jammed in the door?”; the little one looks at me (the Jesus freak) for an answer to the question and the other unspoken question, “Why would God hurt me?”

I didn’t have the words to share, yet I knew God did not harm this little one and I stated so; and many reasons and suggestions ran through my mind, yet this lack of selecting the right words to answer a small child wasn’t the only issue blocking me from providing one.
Therefore, I too believe that not only should we be equipped to share of our hope in Jesus Christ, that too we should be able to share some understanding of the harm and damage Satan’s kingdom in the spiritual realms affects us in the physical.

The majority of Christians have not studied or understood God’s Holy Breathed Inspired word or the truths and warnings He has imparted to us and the implications of that which God the Father has advised us to stay away from, including the many ways of divination involving the supernatural.
After starting to read my bible in my thirties at God the Father’s request I now can see the answer I should have presented to this young one, along with my knowledge and first-hand experience of the unseen kingdoms that move amongst us, without scaring the child. The unseen realms I was already aware of, yet had never factored in how much danger we are threatened with by the workers in Satan’s kingdom causing strife and disruption, and what we do and where we are can result in whether we receive no injury, a scratch or something more serious and debilitating.

God has protected me more times than I can count. So, I can only imagine the times I’ve been rescued that I don’t even know about. Thank you God for always being there even when I didn’t know it. amen 
(a true meme that does the rounds in Christian circles.)

It is the environment one is in and what is loosed that will affect the outcome, our freedoms and the fullness of our safety and the peace within community. Though God always delivers and restores us in so many different ways.

Mike Wittmer shares in his writings on ‘Little Foxes’ : Small details can wreck the grandest plans, so the man in ‘Song of Songs’ urges his lover  to catch “the little foxes that ruin the vineyards” of their love. (2:15) He’d seen foxes climb over walls and dig out vines in search of grapes. They were hard to catch as they darted into the vineyard then melted back into the night. But they must not be ignored.

http://ourdailybread.ca/little-foxes

Therefore, make an effort to keep out and remove anything of the wicked spiritual ways of this world that come to rob one of their peace and blessings and harmonious relationships.

Therefore, ask oneself:

Is there a greater presence and invitation of Jesus and His ways and the Holy Spirit or has a parent been dabbling in Satan’s craft in the many forms of the occult presented?
(Opening doorways that their children may fall into the same trappings?)

On this particular day I suspect the parent’s lifestyle over the decades has presented imps and mischievous spirits as these unseen supernatural beings follow the family around attempting to implicate a situation of trouble or harm and even disharmony, hence the accident and injury and the battle to block the good angels providing the full protection that is necessary to avoid harm.

Perhaps with a name like Crowley, there may be ancestral familiar spirits hanging around for generations that need to be removed and sent back to the place God the Father has prepared for them, renouncing all ties and bondages. I am unsure whether my family line and blood is related to Aleister Crowley or that we both just happen to have the same surname. You know oddly, this one’s Mum also had her finger jammed in a car door and did not mention it until the driver asked after driving the length of a long street, “why are you crying and upset?”. Then she pipes, “my finger is stuck in the door.” I guess the rush to get in the car and get going does cause distractions.

In other words, perhaps there was an imbalance of good verses wicked angels presence on the scene, and that difference was enough to block the one shutting the car door to not be as careful and alert as they should have been, and a delay in pulling one from danger. For I too believe the angels sent to guard us do block so many incidences of harm targeted at us or one’s carelessness. Another consideration is that the same one had spiritual filth upon them, again this too blocks one’s thinking and clarity of tackling the care and nurture that is normally necessary when attending to young children and closing doors.

Be careful what one looses and invites into their homes from past lifestyles or present times. One must renounce all practices of divination and involvement in magic, Ouija boards, secret society’s and more, and ask Jesus into their lives and clean out that which does not belong, to aid in everything running more smoothly without mishap and gentle for outcomes.

For here in these biblical verses, we are reminded that through such divination practices the children can be harmed as shared in the ‘ Woes of Nineveh’ and In the Psalm that the daughter of Babylon who harmed children will suffer the same fate for her children. Be careful of what one has loosed, the release into one’s surrounds can be detrimental.

The woe of Nineveh, woe to the bloody city, its full of lies and robbery…because of the multitude of harlotries of the seductive harlot, the mistress of sorceries who sells nations through her harlotries and families through her sorceries…her young children were dashed to pieces… - Nahum chapter 3


O daughter of Babylon, who are to be destroyed, Happy the one who reaps you as you have served us! Happy the one who takes and dashes your little ones against the rock! - Psalm 137:8-9

It is not hard to picture a battle between the angels in the protection of God’s children. I know the Father has stepped up my angel protector over the decades, sometimes I think I have Jesus angel guarding me, the same one He had when He walked as a child on this earth. Though I do not ignore that Jesus is delivering me time and time again. There are times I feel my Lord passes through my room to check on me as the battles have become greater than what they used to be.

One can read in the Book of Daniel chapter ten, verses 10-13 (Daniel 10:10-13) that the Prince of the Kingdom of Persia prolonged a battle with an angel who was attempting to deliver a message to Daniel. The message was delayed for twenty-one days, more angels were sent to aid this messenger angel to succeed in the task of ensuring Daniel received the words.

Dependant on what one has let into one’s life and how dark and deep these practices one has delved into will affect others, just as those who walk in the Holy Spirit can bring relief to dark states.

Without checking the history and religions of the Kingdom of Persia, I gather by the statement ‘Prince of the Kingdom of Persia’ there was a demonic stronghold over the land that affected anyone who passed through, including God the Father’s messenger angel.

Therefore, know that when the Holy Bible speaks of ‘children being dashed against stone’ know that this is not God acting out this violence, this is from the demonic strongholds let into the communities from spiritual unfaithfulness to the one true God and the abhorrent ways God the Father warned to stay away from; don’t let it loose into one’s life. A reminder that by inviting the dark world of fallen angels and Satan’s ‘spirit of this world’ into one’s surrounds and not the presence of Jesus Christ, one is inviting harm instead of the safety and wellbeing presence of God the Father’s Holy Spirit.

I’m fully aware I can be affected by the oppressive spirit in others homes, including my workplace; I find I am unable to speak freely on that which should be said and often restrained in my actions in situations and ways I normally would for betterment of outcomes and needs.

If such an oppressive spirit is blocking my words, as it hangs heavy in an environment, how much more are others thoughts restrained and is confusion brought in resulting in incidents that lead to injury. Perhaps more clumsiness in movement from being shoved around by unseen beings, headaches from prodding and other phantom pains from the devilish presences in the room.

C S Lewis ‘Screwtape Letters’ shares many moments of how the spiritual darkness entities are sent on missions to spy upon us, to harm and antagonise and to thwart our blessings in Jesus Christ. I can confirm from my own experiences that C.S.Lewis was writing from his knowledge and witnessing of the unseen realms that move around us and the game play Satan’s workers use to come at us.

When we start saying no to Jesus and have spiritual unfaithfulness , then Satan’s kingdom will take opportunity and increase his presence in one’s home and life; this includes when we sin too, it becomes an invitation for Satan’s workers to encourage us further off the path and into greater oppression. One must confess Jesus Christ as Lord and Saviour and some words of ‘Praise Be to Jesus Christ’ to state to this dark world you Belong to our Lord & Saviour Jesus to keep other residences at bay.

Invite Jesus into one’s home and His peace to ensure there is no room for devil spirits in the home. Invite Jesus in for a sound mind and freedom in all things; spoken words of “Praise be to Jesus Christ’ will aid in clearing a room. (Thank you Billy Ocean for showing me this. Praise be to God for your wonderful performance at QPAC and for raising the roof with four simple words.)

Be ready to share in the world today that denies God, the safety of Jesus Christ and His promises and to warn to be wary of what one lets into one’s life thinking it is safe, for the consequences can be quite harmful and destructive in more ways than one could ever image.

Guard the Church

21st May 2006 received message on country drive to ‘guard the church’

#COPE

In 2006 I received the message to ‘guard the church’, I had no idea what this meant nor what to do about it. (I made note in my spiritual diary of the moment.) From memory I typed up a letter stating the message and handed it to a priest at one of the churches I attended. Believing that as a man of the clothe that he would have greater understanding then I do of such a nature and share it with the Brisbane Archbishop, whom I probably sent a duplicate copy of the letter to as well.

After hearing the words “I want you to study the bible for yourself.” So began the readings. Though I soon found out I was studying it too slow at my pace, the next statement was, “just read it” And so I did, taking in the same questions I had with the other chapters, yet this time not writing it all down. I soon was to acknowledge I needed to know what God’s Holy Breathed Inspired word said and to hold onto the promises of God and use the authoritative action in the many moments shared where Jesus and the disciples overcame many situations and where Jesus spoken commanded voice produced an active outcome.

Unbeknownst to me I was about to be thrown into places of high spiritual warfare and be made aware of what was going on, as Satan sent in his workers to target me with their wicked practices. It became a do or die survival plan using the tactical action plan teachings of Jesus Christ. What did Jesus do and the reliance of the equipping of the Holy Spirit. Through a twenty-year period as I became aware not all was as it seems I did as Jesus did and I invited Jesus into the situations, struggles and onslaught and testified to His workings and deliverance in my life.

For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places
Ephesians 6:12
New King James Version

I could not have overcome sooner that which was being thrown at me without knowing and having some understanding of God’s word, a relationship of who God the Father and Jesus Christ was in my life and how they love and provide; knowing the promises of God and the Holy Spirits understanding of what is at hand and revelations into the truths of the situations presenting.

Lest Satan should take advantage of us for we are not ignorant of his devices.
2 Corinthians 2:11
New King James Version

Satan will persuade one to place one’s focus on topics of less importance to distract one from the true harm against God’s people and humanity and the truth of the real issues. One needs to grow in God’s word and listen to the guidance of the Holy Spirit to be aware of the distractions and Satan’s schemes and avoid the trappings and the little foxes sent out to distract one from the path and work God has set aside for us. The flat earth discussions are one example, does it matter at a time when the people are critically been targeted with spiritual wickedness and finding greater difficulties in surviving this life. Since when will the many of us find the time or the finances to navigate and record the truth of the adventure to find out.

The discussions of pharmaceuticals being placed in the witchcraft box along with the television true agendas in regards viewing material. The truth I have found is that by having the many focus on these other subject matters and the effects in the community, the many are failing to see or understand that we are all being spiritually veiled and manipulated by ways of spiritual supernatural wickedness resulting in affecting our thought and action processes, dumbing us down using spiritual entities placed upon our person, placing us in trances so that we go around in automatic or zombie mode, blacking us out momentarily or placing us in sleep mode so that our work is not done. The MK-Ultra programs are more devastating to the cruelty to mankind then a television show presently.

Though the many focusing on this topic of ‘flat earth’ are trying to wake the people up from what they state is a lie, the truth is the greater concern on our journey is that the many of us are being spiritually manipulated and veiled through the many practices of the occult in our societies and by the means of the Principalities and Powers and Satan’s hierarchy; not the distraction of whether the earth is flat or round. This in itself is more of a concern how we are being robbed of free thought and action and the freedom to be ourselves whilst they target and bombard us with spiritual filth that affects everything we do and blocks our true thought and act progressions. Even removing or numbing down the parents to being less attentive to their children’s cries from antagonism, pain, threats and sickness. In Brisbane some day-care centres are teaching toddlers yoga and this is introducing the Kundalini spirit and spiritually oppressing the children from a very young age. The ancient practices taken from the Sanskrit that are not holy or conducive to a little one’s wellbeing and whole body and mind.

Molding the children to devil spirits at a very young age to manipulate to be the puppets the powers that be want as these little ones grow. Presently through spiritual means we all are being made puppet. We are having our true thoughts and actions blocked by those who target us with spiritual filth placed strategically upon our person.

It is a necessity to seek God daily in prayer and song to have this unseen hinderances and blockages removed from our person to enable us to function in completeness as we move about our day in the freedom of who God made us to be. For example, a shadow placed on one’s back or marker placed on a positioning on the head can have one becoming forgetful and leaving the child or the dog in the car and forgetting about the beloved one for too long a time. These four disciplines practiced daily assist me in shutting down the harm and distractions targeted my way and to aid the body, mind and soul in getting back to the place of shalom, whole body & whole mind.

C O P E

  • Capture one’s thoughts
  • Oil in the lamp, don’t let it run out
  • Pray oneself and without ceasing
  • Equipped with the Holy Spirit use Jesus’s teachings

Our communities are becoming more pagan and secular year by year and the many do not understand the detriment to our wellbeing, health and relationships and over all the Nation.

Many do not realize the releasing of Satan’s practices affects the communities with an increase of spiritual filth placing heavy spiritual weights in our environments instead of releasing the light clean spirit of and practices of Jesus Christ into our environments that brings true freedom. Through the tail end of Halloween week and through to November I was visiting places daily where the people in these communities perhaps are more into the so-called secrets of darkness than the truths of Jesus Christ.

I found I was experiencing some very confronting situations in the spirit and I was struggling to understand the meaning of each event that I was being exposed to. I found as I spent the next few months reflecting on these moments in the spirit coming to mind were the parables of the Virgins and the oil lamps (Matthew 25:1-13), the parable of the ten talents (Matthew25:14-29) and God’s double-edged sword understanding based on disciplines I had practiced throughout this journey to overcome and stand where I was planted.

Capture one’s thoughts

In the Week after his Passing

There was an extra church service during the week in celebration of someone or something; I can’t remember.

I parked in the lane way. I headed to Turbot Street and looked up to see if it was safe to cross. It is past dusk, I see a bunch of people coming towards me, perhaps somewhere a number of between 7 to 10 in the group.

I cross over the road and head through Cathedral Square that which I have always called MIM Place; a green park space.

I am now standing on Ann Street in the city across from the cathedral. Darkness has crept in and covered the city. The lights of the city illuminate the cbd’s outline and features. As I think about crossing to the other side of the road, what should I see but a male and female in their own wheelchairs pushing up Ann Street (heading to the Valley). I look at them and I wondered. I looked at the church and the lights that illuminate its grandeur. The street was still and silent and there was a sad strange numbing silence within me.

I look at the pair in their wheelchairs again, expecting them to speak to me. They just wheeled on by and I watched them, her slightly in front of him. Attached to the back of his chair was a business man’s large leather satchel bag.

I crossed over and when I got to the top of the first section of stairs, I stood on the middle platform and turned to look for them but they were gone.

(I still do not believe it, there is doubt.)

I walked into the church building with the same slowness that had carried me this far.

There were musical chairs taking place as a few of us after our individual arrivals kept changing places before the start of the service. We were in the brown choral booth area, the congregation sitting in the left side of the two booths.

Perhaps ten minutes into the service there was a late arrival.

He stood directly behind me and I noted he and the choristers  on the other side acknowledged each other

During the next song he sang. I heard him behind me. He sang beautifully and I knew God had sent him and I could contain my tears no more… my face screwed up and the tears ran. I knew the choristers could see me but I continued to maintain my slight head adjustment and kept my glaze directed towards the Lady Chapel

What is going on?

First the seam in my dress ripped loudly from the bottom hem up many inches at a time when he supposedly passed. I looked at the clock on my workplace wall and I recall the odd action of the scientist on duty and their slight change in appearance.

Secondly, I could not get out of bed for days on the weekend after attending his funeral.

Coincidentally: one weekend in my adolescent years I could not get out of bed due to a sore back. I was in pain every time I woke and so I chose to seek sleep. I recall my boyfriend visiting but I did not want him to stay long because I wanted to sleep to stop the pain. Could this have been the weekend this one had the car accident and became a quadriplegic.

Coincidentally, I recall sharing my morning moment with him over the telephone of when I stepped out of bed that morning and fell straight to the floor; my legs would not hold me. He happened to share that he tried to stand up in bed this morning and fell straight to the floor. I thought how odd that we should both have a similar experience as I shared my moment after he shared his weird event.

St John’s Anglican Church
Ann Street Brisbane
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She is loved beyond words... Missed without Measure

Sometimes as Christians we wonder why God chooses to heal one on this earth and not the other. For there are many in this room today who have faith greater than a mustard seed and loved this Belle-bird, my niece immensely and in unity.

I believe God the Father was going to heal my beloved niece in this world. I had believed this for many decades & then God changed His mind. Not because of anything we had done. Yet because of the ways of the world. The world has been plying its trade for way too long and is no longer good enough for God’s children, His family. The Heavenly Father chose to heal her in His kingdom. I received this message twelve to eighteen months ago that her healing would be activated there. I saw in a vision Miss Belle-bird in her full beauty in shalom, long elegant body in a standing pose on the meadow of a hill with her long brown tousles of hair dancing, caught in the gentle breeze. So long ago, I now do not recall if that was a bird she had resting on her bent arm that had caught her focus or was it the movement of a dance on that hill in a soft light lemony yellow dress as the wind caught her up in the softness of the moment, moving freely & without the constraints of this world.

My favourite memory of this young woman is off her waddling around the backyard of her Grandparents home at Blackstone, lagging just a little behind her cousins and uncle of close range proximity, as they ran freely in laughter and fun chasing each other in their little posse; her in blue toddler toweling training pants, bare feet, short bob hairstyle & her bird like shining smile. Occasionally I would run behind her and lift her off her feet and place her in the middle of that small group. Most times though there was no need, they all looked after each other, including the straggler. There was the odd call, “Come on you!” from one of them, as they called her by name.

The other moment was standing at a supermarket checkout with her in my arms as I dangled a blue packet freddo frog before her. She held it. She looked at it & gave it a bit of a feel and handed it back to me. I laughed as at this time of her life she had not discovered the delight of chocolate that as a toddler she had been banned from consuming. Who gave this smiling one her first taste I do not know yet I heard one family member say her ears prick up when someone says chocolate.

My saddest memory is during a hospital visit she shared she was having her ligaments and muscles cut to lengthen them. It shocked me to know that her suffering of Muscular Dystrophy disease required such an action to prevent restrictions of stretching one’s limbs out.  This may have only been a once off operation I am not sure, yet time and time again she soldiered on in her treatment & hospital stays. 

I had started a year or two ago writing to my niece monthly, usually adding a tidbit about her dad. I stopped about 6 months ago and then remembered in the past two months that I had stopped. In this fortnight holiday leave from work I was going to restart. With the tidbits again. Too late! Too late! I hear and question why I stopped.

I work in an environment that robs one of their clarity of thinking and action. This is one of the ways of the world that the Heavenly Father is not pleased with: a reason why it is necessary to stay connected to the body of Jesus Christ through prayer, study of God’s holy breathed inspired word and in community of gathering together to help maintain our clarity of thought and action.

I want you to know it is never too late, there are circumstances not within our control that blocks one from doing what we could or saying what we should. God has a plan in the suffering. In Belle-bird’s circumstances and at perhaps at requests of her Nanna (in heaven watching what is going on below) to God the Father that this young woman was better off with God in His kingdom as she will have more fullness of freedom in her true home. That is not too say Ms Belle-bird’s passing did come as a shock to the many.

I had a dream in the sleeping hours of Wednesday night/Thursday morning long before I knew of Belle-bird’s passing. The dream went, an old family friend who has passed on in the last few months had restructured and tided my flower beds and back seating area. There was no reason to dream of this person or such an action. All that I could think of after hearing of Belle-bird’s passing was that it was a message from heaven, that God had indeed prepared a place for her in His garden for in my father’s house there are many rooms.

That is not all; on the evening before the morning of her passing (maybe sometime between 9 and 10pm if not later) I had not long finished my evening prayers as I sat up in my bed, propped on a pillow.  I was tired and had been drifting in and out of sleep during this short pray session when I hear the words, “will you pray for Belle-bird?” Tiredness, an attitude of ‘I am done for today’ I’ve got nothing left, thoughts she has been in my prayers on & off all week and the past month that I didn’t believe a delay would be an issue. I replied, ”I will pray for her in my early morning’s prayers.” I left it at that, the voice said no more.

I did not know she was in hospital, I thought she was safe at home. If I had known I would have squeezed whatever energy I had left that evening and forced even another one minute of prayer. For targeted words in prayer can nail and overcome any problem. For decades, my first-born niece and I would up our prayers targeted at this one’s wellbeing as soon as we heard Belle-bird was in hospital. Hospitals are spiritual war zones and more prayer protection is needed for the one in the fight for life. We had heard nothing, there was no social media posts to share she was an in-patient.

The quiet spoken voice that was in my room said nothing except asked “will you pray for Belle-bird?” it did not share she was in need; it did not say I would like you to pray now. It did not say please pray now, don’t leave it till tomorrow. She is in need tonight.

I do not know who that voice belonged to, and I did not hear the owner enter my room, and I did not ask.

What would have been the outcome if I prayed on request instead of delaying, I do not know?

Is this an example of obey God, don’t ask why, just do? Trust and Obey. You don’t need to know the situation at hand but you will see the outcome if you do as I ask.

What I do know is, we are all in a spiritual battle and targeted as members of the family of Jesus Christ. It is necessary to let other family members know when one is in difficulty of any form including when one is an in-patient in a hospital. Extra prayer cover is required to strengthen and empower the one in need during a battle for life. Reread the story in Book of Daniel chapter ten where the Prince of Persia was elongating a battle with a messenger sent to give Daniel a message. Michael one of the chief princes came to help the messenger succeed in the task of getting the message through.

Ms Belle-bird’s other grandmother on her mother’s side went into hospital once and I got word of it, prayers went up and in no-time this grandmother was back home. One extra body helps to overcome in the battles that this world throws at us.

I had intentions of dropping a video to Ms B in late July, ‘The Book Thief‘ a beautiful story told in the eyes of a young girl about a village of people who overcame the odds in life. I guess there is no need now as she will more than likely meet this person personally for heaven is a place where all God’s children shine and grow and unite, where our loved ones who go before us wait till we are all reunited as a whole village once again.

Have you ever notices how Christian rarely say dead or died when speaking of a loved one? That’s because we don’t die our soul the essence of who we are heads back to the home we originated from. Our fleshly body returns to the dust, from dust we came, to dust it returns, our spirit returns to its owner too, for Christians are gifted the Holy Spirit that leads to all truth, and so it returns to God the creator of all. Our soul heads home for that big party in the sky where all heaven rejoices when another has made it home.

If you want to join the celebration, when your time comes then ensure you find and accept Jesus Christ before it is too late.

I give thanks and praise to God the Father for the devotions of my beautiful niece and a life shared in Jesus Christ and filled with the Holy Spirit.

(Many will have difficulties in accepting what I am about to share. I say this for I question and acknowledge the many ways of the world and the harm and assaults targeted at children, the constraints of this world that restricts and debilitates the many.)

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